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i woke up yesterday
and i couldn’t find the words to say
what’s really eating me alive
something buried deep inside
it looks easy but i’m struggling
i don’t know how to do anything
all i see is what i want to see
but nothing’s coming on this frequency
just tell me the minute when everything went wrong
everything you said we had, we suddenly forgot
lately in dreams i try to find
a window to another time
but all i ever get is further from
the memories and what i’ve done
at the other end’s an open door
no one can tell me what that one’s for
and if the only way out is through
then this all comes down to what we choose
now we’re just making up
versions of the things to come
and when it’s all said and done
i’ll meet you back at one
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what’s up ahead
what’s there to fear
when i don’t remember why i’m even here
i pick up the phone
just a dead line
there’s no one waiting for me, looking for a sign
it’s getting cold but i don’t know why
there’s nothing left if we’re not even gonna try
walk through the door
leave it behind
uncovered anything there ever was to find
a tired glance
the empty space
the disappointment written all across your face
whispering sins
the details poured
and everything you want in pieces on the floor
apologies
too few too late
and the growing urge to lecture and berate
half-hearted sighs
and the wreckage left
in a couple years maybe a letter sent
it's all torn up now and we don't even know how
the end comes on so strong and everything here is gone
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hope springs eternal
but when all hope is lost and we’ve still got forever
then who’ll figure the cost?
you never want to admit it
the blind leading the blind
the illusion of progress and there’s nothing new to find
while we’re waiting for everything to burn to the ground
wonder if there’s any way to turn any of this around
or is it already over now?
hours feel like seconds, the sky’s getting dark
turning into something cold and floating around like stars
being smug is easy with your thumb on the scale
once you rig the system it gets hard to fail
why bother with figures and concrete facts
when you can drive the message home in a blitz attack?
and never want to find a way out of it now.
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when there’s an end
something’s about to begin
and the spot lights shining
are there to tell you when
and you say
you’ll never make it out anyway
and you know that it’s true
the dark is colder now
than it ever felt before
and the things inside you have
gone rotten to the core
there’s a way
they can try to can take it all away
but none of it’s you
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i’m trying hard to stay positive
but it’s difficult, and i don’t know what it is
even when things are good something inside pulls
even when things look up i can’t help but look for holes
and i’m wondering what all it meant
is there something in me? is it something that’s just always been?
falling in to dark and searching for a light
but the bottom never ends and it takes me through the night
and i need to know before i close my eyes
will i wake up here? will i be surprised?
is there anything else that can save me from myself
i need to know if there’s something else
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all the washed up jocks singing "Jack and Diane"
no matter how many times they can't understand
It's not a happy song and it might be true
When life goes cold they don't know what to do
It's a long road down to the promised land
And it ain't any shorter for an honest man
When the dirt is gone it'll leave a clue
Hiding it plain sight by the light of the moon
every moving shape draws a line on your face
and it’s always changing, i just can’t trace
where we’ve been before or where this goes
before too long we’re on familiar roads
the time goes on and on and on
and the phone never rings
if we knew back then the things we know now
would it’ve changed anything?
we don’t control the lives we lead
something inside dictates the speed
ut its not for long and before its through
you turn around wonder if its true
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i can see where you’re coming from but i can’t see why
everything we had is lost
everything here died
calling out for a savior when the time has long since passed
nothing left here worth rescuing
nothing was made to last
saying shit that a 5 year old could drive a Mack truck through
none of it is significant
none of it is true
parroting what new machine always says things ought to be
you don’t give it a second thought
just pour another drink
what the fuck is going on with us?
can we really be this dumb?
i don’t understand why evidence, as clear as it can be
is suddenly controversial
or hard for you to see
a dialogue with insanity is the best that we can do
not smart enough to be rational
no time to think it through
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you can hide out in the dark
but you can’t make it go away
and you can pray you miss the mark
but you can’t face another day
if we’re running from ourselves
then who knows what’s to come
and when the meter jumps the scale
well it looks like somebody won
they say that it goes and goes till it’s gone
and in the end is all we want
now time is up and we’ve just begun
to send ‘em all to kingdom come
at the end of every lie
comes somebody’s judgment day
and before you’ve even tried
something new is in the way
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i was right in front of you but you were calling my name
there’s a disconnect between what we see as the same
every time you close your eyes and it happens again
you know it’ll pass but you don’t know when
and if everything we had was gone then how did we lose it again?
and when everything we did was wrong then why did we chose it again?
all the lights are flashing now, while we lie in the rain
and the calls are coming fast, there ain’t no refrain
if you think the end’s in sight then you’ve only begun
to realize how it all caves in on you and everyone
you’re living up to what you’ve got
but that’s not really saying a lot
and everything is slipping out of your hands
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i dont even remember why you said
you were gonna come back here again
what do you see when you close your eyes
are we in for a big surprise
and when we sleep and i hold you close
what makes you think i won't let go
and when the night becomes the day
you still think i'm gonna stay
we were two in a mountain of millions
we were just two in a sea of millions
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we were running for the door
never waiting for anything anymore
and when the time was running thin
we couldn’t even understand
we never said it’s what we want
but now we’re told it’s what we’ve got
and in the end it all falls back on us
but there’s a war still being fought
just not as hard as we had thought
so it’s never gonna end for us
making things make sense
was never worth the effort spent
and yelling quiet on the set
the production can be begin
now you're asking yourself, where did it all go wrong?
and if we started now could we mend it like torn cloth?
or is it too late to turn it around?
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released April 6, 2020
